I am so incredibly frustrated!!!!!! I have been going to vancouver a lot in the last little while to go see a band called 100 Monkeys and Im loving it. I talked a lot with their sound man about how he got in the buisness and now i cant make the next show....... im so mad!!!! i want to back and talk to him more.

but anyhoo.... i have some photos to put up from the shows... and im going to be working on them and posting them.

and im going to try and move out soon... im looking at jobs in van and i just aplyed to a job at the arts club. *crosses fingers*

i really want to be out there and living life again. I feel like ALL i do now is work and go home... it sucks. i dont like my job and it just makes me so tired all the time dealing with all the shit... working at a liquor store is not as fun as it sounds.

im really hoping to be out of the house in the next 6 months... we'll see it that happens... im kinda luckyer then most cus my uncle said i could stay at his place till i got on my feet... and his house is right by granville island (where the arts club is) so im really hoping for this job... its 12/h with 40 hours a week... i havnt had a full time job in forever and it hurts not to... and i would be happy working in a theatre for the rest of my life... but i wont

i want to eventually get into film... maybe even acting... who knows! once im in vancouver i would be so much more motivated then over here. even being in van for 4 days makes me feel like i COULD do this.

so thats whats been going on in my life... i dont use this so much anymore cus i really dont blog anymore. it kinda got me in trouble a few times, posting things that i should have just kept to myself. so now everything goes in a secret place LOL